New Vision Board for Fall 09
Having a better time, ready to go home
Not having a good time :(
So I am trying to just enjoy myself. They have a pool, but it is a walk away & it's cold. I don't want to come down with amonia! As it is my roommates like to sleep in the cold, I froze all night. I don't want to drive home in the dark. So I will wait until morning.
The Cricut is out of the box
Long weekends should happen more often
Most people change their clothes when the seasons change. For me it's not the same. In the winter, it is 97 degrees in my house, so when I come home from work I immediately change into shorts & tank top. I can't put the shorts away. I have dressy stuff then casual stuff I wear all the time. Just have a lot of it. But for now it is all folded & put away.
Think I am getting sick
I'm going to try to accomplish something today. I would love to break open the Cricut today.
I'm not supposed to be here
Joy Diet: Week 3 - Desire
What do I want? I like this one :) Much better than Truth. At the moment, I want to win the lottery. I am $1000 short on bills. I want the phone to stop ringing. I need an extra paycheck. I will fix it, I just need a little time.
I want to use my Cricut finally. I want to get rid of this stuff in my room. I want my workshops to be successful. Well they are successful, I just want more attendance. My workshops are almost costing me money to run. I want the special I am running 50% off will help.
I want to go to the gym. (R) has been after me about this. We need to do this together. I want to connect with someone on a romantic level. I want someone to like me for ME and not be interested in me for one thing. I want a vacation. I want less stress. Less stress.
I want to open a creative store. It's something that keeps coming up. It is possible. Others have done it, I know I can do better. I would be helping others while helping myself. I know this. This is what I want. But it's hard to think about doing this when my workshop attendance isn't very good. That is the things that I want.
Pack rat spills over to digital
I have 103645 emails in my gmail account.
It was worse...
You are currently using 5755 MB (78%) of your 7370 MB.
You are currently using 5572 MB (75%) of your 7373 MB.
You are currently using 5460 MB (74%) of your 7370 MB.
Working on it!
Week 2: Joy Diet - Truth
I liked last week - doing nothing. This week on the other hand, tell your self the truth. I don't know if I can handle that! Haven't they ever heard of Joyful Ignorance? :)
The truths that came out almost immediately this weekend made me physically sick. Perhaps it's detox, I don't know, but it wasn't pleasant & it certainly wasn't joyful.
I don't think I understand the objective really. The book says to Create and absorb at least one moment of truth each day, and ask these questions...
What is the painful story I am telling?
Can I be sure the story is true? Is this story working?
Can I think of a story that might work better?.
My truths were "I have diabetes" - something I have not allowed myself to think about. I always said I have Insulin Resistance, which I did have, I just know that it has progressed to diabetes. I have the lab slip in the car, I just don't want to know. Well I couldn't know at the time, I had a mission. Can I think of a story that might work better? Yea I could lie to myself some more. That question seems to be like finding a truth & then creating a lie. I don't get it. I know I can reverse this, I just need to loose some weight. Which I can start to do.
Another truth was "I'm a pack rat" - something that was not a hidden truth. Oh yes, the story is definitely true! Can I think of a story that might work better? I'm not a pack rat & I know exactly where everything is? So where is the truth in that? See I don't think I am getting it.
Another truth was "I'm fat & I'm afraid to even talk to anyone new" - The truth is I am fat. I hate the term BBW (Big Beautiful Woman). Dating is tough when you are bigger. Well now-a-days people hook up all the time but I think it is worse when you are bigger. The few times I have gone out, I was asked up to their room a few minutes after saying hello. Um NO! Why don't you at least by me a drink first you jerk! I am big but I am not desperate. That pisses me off & puts me on guard.|
So those were a few things that I was feeling this weekend. The "doing nothing" got easier, perhaps because the truths made me sick & it was easy to just lie there. Here's to a better week.
Joy Diet: Week 1 - Nothing - Mid week check-in
So this week I have been practicing taking time for myself. This is part of the Joy Diet. Now a little background, I've been running around like a mad woman for so long that this is extremely hard. Everytime I check my email or look at my phone, someone wants me to do something for them. I am used to working two full time jobs. When I wasn't working I was in school. I never stopped. Stopping seems foreign. And to be honest with you, I believe I am healthy because I have never stopped. The rest of my family have stopped & well it's been really difficult to get back going again. I don't want that to happen. I need to keep going. However I realize the need to stop a little bit.
Some thoughts in the book were...
"We shape clay into a pot but it is the emptiness inside that holds whatever we want" - reading that took my breath away for about five minutes & then I realized that the bigger the pot the more stuff you can fit in there. Which isn't always a good thing. .
"Going on vacation is just adding a different somethings to our schedules for a brief period. Vacation - act of vacating. Of leaving, loosing touch with, letting go of." I need to vacation in my room a little bit :) Just let things go. So it's been a week of schedule adjusting & giving myself permission to let others wait for me. To just catch my breath. Of finding my own rhythm again.
Getting busy again
Phase Two: Implants
Today was Phase Two of my dental implants. I wasn't sure what to expect. This is what I got...
This is what the next step in my implants look like. No this is not a picture of me or my actual teeth, just a picture I found online. I wanted to show what the next step looks like. I will keep them in for one month, then I get impressions & then two weeks later I will have teeth!! Well at least in the top. I need an additional $2000 for the next phase. No pressure.
I can not wait for this to be over with. Good things are starting. Finishing one chapter of my life & moving on to other things. It's all good.
Getting inspired
This weekend went by fast, but I had more of a weekend than I did in a long time. Getting used to the not having to do things. I mean I have stuff to do but there isn't any deadlines. I am coming to realize that I NEED deadlines & perhaps a little drama. It's like my puppy (14 months old), he is a monster & always runs upstairs at the mention of taking a shower or the minute he hears you preparing for the shower. He loves to drink the running water from the tub. So where am I going with this? Well he won't just go away & always sneak his head in the shower when you are taking one, causing a mess. We realized that if we just give him what he wants he will go away. Kinda like the drama. If I don't create my own drama, drama is soon to find me & I probably won't like it as much as my self inflicted drama.
This weekend was awesome. Saturday was mad rush to go food shopping. We had nothing! I mean the last can of tuna fish was gone from the pantry. I was firm when I said I am not going food shopping without having a menu planned. I did not want to by any more food & still have nothing to eat. So Saturday I made two trips, one to S&S & one to BJs. Then I went off to a dear friends house for her book launching party. Then I watched baseball & basically took it easy. I think I was in bed by 10pm. On a Saturday!
Today I woke up bright & early & went to the MIT Swapfest trying to get the power cord for my laptop. The guy I was going to get it from, well I couldn't find him. I asked a few people for a Dell laptop power cord for the C series & they gave me one. Problem is I got it home & it was only 70 watts. Apparently I need 90 watts. So the laptop still fires up, it is just a little slow. I also took care of a lot of laundry today. Tomorrow I go to the dentist for Phase Two of my implants. I should have my two top teeth by Christmas! Excited for that. Not sure about the money part, but it will all work itself out.
Joy Diet: Week 1 - Nothing
So September 18th kicked off the Joy Diet. I had gotten really into the idea since I just graduated & have been suffering from "whattodoitis". Coming home & not have to read chapters upon chapters or brainstorm to come up with a paper last minute, I have been finding myself, somewhat lost. I thought this was the perfect thing for me. I had bought the audio book for a couple of reasons. First, I couldn't find the book, in real life stores or online. Secondly, I've read enough these past couple of semesters. I like the audio, except when I want to quote something from the book.
So I had created a big post on Friday, the first day & was almost ready to hit the save button when the battery warning on this laptop went off, I had less than 10 minutes worth of battery. I looked to see if I was plugged in, only to find the wire was completely frayed. Something is always a crisis in my life, seriously. Now because I have been in a funk of sorts since I graduated, I haven't been on the best schedule. I come home & do things, but the thing is "I" control what I do. This was really overwhelming. So the way I dealt with it was to shut down & get headaches. This will pass but it was kinda annoying. So I was coming home, getting a headache or vegging out to the Red Sox. But I did have a deadline. Something I needed to do by Sunday (today).
So my laptop was dying, powercord completely broken & I had a deadline. I quickly transfered all my files to my external hard drive incase I would never see this computer again. It was a race - in the end, it took 9 minutes to transfer the files I needed. With one moment to spare. You know I could really do without this much drama in my life, but you know what, I proved to myself that without the drama, I ama slug that gets headaches.
So I got the powercord (kinda, not the right one) & I met the deadline. But I think the powercord was a sign. I don't think it was conicence that it happened on the first day where I was supposed to do nothing. It kinda MADE ME do nothing. I wasn't up until 2am checking email or doing the Facebook thing. I slept & started my Saturday even earlier. Which was a good thing because I crammed a lot into Saturday.
Both Friday & Saturday I took moments to "do nothing". Friday I watched TV that I needed to catch up on. I also went to bed earlier. The plan was to just lie there & but I wound up drifting to sleep. On Saturday when I woke up, I woke up but I laid there for about 20 minutes before actually getting up. Now I had a VERY busy day but I allowed myself those few minutes to do nothing. I have to say it felt weird but it was definately worth it. I took more time when I had to drive about 40 minutes away. While I drive I usually call people to catch up, this time I shut my phone off!
Going into the actually week, I will definitely sneak some nothing time in. One good thing about having the audio version of the book, I can't sneak ahead. :)
19 days post school
So lots of good stuff about the day. Lots of bad stuff about the day. Mostly good stuff. Ted Kennedy died earlier that week & all of Boston was shut down. It also rained a lot. Now normally I would LOVE the weather but not when I am going to get official pictures & stuff. (J) & his husband (R) was there. My family & (R) could not make it :( I understand circumstances, but it still hurt not being able to share a moment with them. I really wanted a picture of my two best friends together with me & my graduation cap & gown. I will have to recreate it when I have my graduation party in January :) That's when it will be official.
But that's the thing. I walked on May 1, 2009. I still had a full semester (8 more classes left to go), but at the time they were not certain they were going to have a Fall graduation. I could not gamble on not having a graduation. This was too important to me. So I walked in May. Now they always have graduation the second week of September. Of course this year they had to be different. They scheduled graduation two weeks early. Graduation was held the LAST DAY OF THE SEMESTER! So because I finished that day, they could not confer the degree. If it had stayed the second week in September I would have my degree in hand. It's a conspiracy against me specifically :) HA HA. Well sometimes it feels that way.
Nice ceremony. Was done really fast, only about 130 people graduated. Went out to eat with (J) & his husband (R) afterward & had the best lunch ever. The Captain & Coke tasted soooo good. I had waited a long time for this celebration. It was kind of overshadowed by the TV coverage of Ted Kennedy's funeral. Weird. Last time I graduated with my Associates degree, my graduation was trumped by another event that had people glued to the TV - 9/11 :(
So after 19 days, I know it's going to take a lot of time to rebuild some of the brain cells that I killed studying useless stuff. I have been less stressed & Ihave been trying to keep myself busy. I now have clean laundry & have made plans with friends. It's going to take some time to get my life back but I am slowly working on it. Next step is clearing out clutter & going to the gym.
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Disconnected by not blogging
I feel so disconnected kinda. Writing things down in my blog used to be a necessity now it's something I barely do. So much has happened. So many things that the pureness, the moment, is lost. The reason I sound so whiny & needy & bitchy here is because I usually post in the heat of the moment or shortly after. I get the emotion & the intensity of the moment, well as best I can. Not for comments from others telling me to grow up or shut up and deal but for me to get it out & for me to deal with it. Since I haven't been posting, I feel like it's lost. It's becoming harder to process because I don't have all the information, if that make sense.
34 more days!
50 more days of this bullshit!
You know how I HATE online classes. Well since two of my on campus classes were canceled now I have all but one class online! Awesome way to end. After all this time you would think that they would get online classes right! You get access to the class Monday morning at MIDNIGHT (not a time to start cracking), then you gotta get the book (cause god forbid you get the book early & they change the book or cancel the class all together), so you order the book Monday & by any luck you get the book next day if you are fortunate to live in the area. If you don't then you are screwed, 2-3 days shipping? So because Northeastern doesn't have any normal classes anymore it's all RUSH RUSH CRAM, 4 or 6 week classes, you have to read 10 chapters in one week, but wait you don't get a week to do the work, you gotta read, understand & post answers to questions by THURSDAY, yes that is one 1/2 days to cram & answer questions. Oh but wait there is more! You have to "discuss with your classmates" by Saturday. SO you have to log on more than once a week & bullshit with others. Class participation is almost a 3rd of your grade!!! I don't want to talk to others! We are supposed to learn from one another. Hello, how do I know that "Suzy" or "David" knows what they are talking about. No ask me questions, let me answer them. If this was a REAL class, I would be sitting in the back taking notes while you TAUGHT, not talking to my classmates!
Summa Cum Laude with two semesters left to go. I lost that status because of all these stupid online classes. How can I be an A student in class but a C student online?? Online classes expect way too much from you & you are already behind the eight ball because of the whole schedule. One day to read. You just skim. It's bullshit. My Associates Degree was a quality education, my Bachelors is just a joke. 50 more days. 50 more days.
Mom getting operated on today, (R) on Friday
Perhaps I am getting old or turning into my parents...
This was a post I just posted in the discussion board of school...
The question was "Who can forget where they were or what they witnessed on the horrific morning of September 11th, 2001? I remember it like it was yesterday. While sitting in my office..."
My answer...
My family at the time were Good Morning America fanatics. I was just about to turn the TV off to leave for my hair appointment, as I was to attend the Northeastern Fall Graduation Ceremony for my Associates Degree, when I saw the first plane hit the building live. I too remember that day like it was yesterday. We never did get to walk & our degrees arrived in the mail with the date imprinted right on it. It took almost 8 years before I could look at the degree.
What I remember the most about 9/11 is the weeks after. The scared terror, but also the "cut off from the rest of the world" feeling, the sense of patriotism & the reconnecting to people since there wasn't any regularly scheduled TV programs for weeks. It felt like one of those feel good movies about the happy days of the 60s. I miss that part.
Maybe I am getting older & turning into my parents & perhaps this isn't the best forum to voice my opinion about technology but technology is going to be the death of us. We have cellphones up to our heads or clipped to our belts 24/7 making us sterile. No one leaves their house anymore. Why would you when you can order groceries online, shop for anything online, take classes online, work from home & meet potential dates online too.
Communication skills are seriously lacking with the newer technologies texting, instant messaging, quick responses from Crackberries, etc. The reason I bring this up as most of us our ending our education here at Northeastern & perhaps we will be planning new systems or working with virtual outsourced teams - just remember the human factor. Technology has made a lot of improvements in our lives, don't get me wrong. I am just scared where we will be in 5 or 10 years. Oh & I want my flying car they promised me by now :) I will get off my soapbox now.
A very poorly worded question
Companies decide to do business internationally for a number of reasons related to seeking markets for the factors of production and/or for customers. When making the strategic decisions to operate internationally, companies must consider many factors, including the firm’s value; its core and distinctive competencies; and its value chain. Based on this analysis, they may choose to source products overseas; outsource functions; or operate in other countries. Using a global or multi-domestic company of your own choosing, describe the strategic decision factors (value, competencies, value chain) for that firm. If the global firm needed to cut costs or the multi-domestic company to generate revenues, recommend a way for them to do that. Justify your response.
So what am I supposed to answer?
Final thoughts on MGT4452
What did you learn about strategy and business through the simulation?
Through the simulation & the class material I learned that you need a solid strategy but that is only a part of the challenge. Monitoring the competition is just as important. Analyzing strengths & weaknesses inside the company but identifying opportunities as well as threats will keep you ahead of the game. I learned that to build a great company you need to have a great team. Dorothy & I worked well together.
When you reflect back on the readings, case analyses, current events discussions, what insights or learning did you realize through this course?
I really enjoyed the case studies because they were relevant & modern. They were real cases that I related to. It was very interesting to learn about Starbucks entry into the international market. I knew a lot about Oprah before but after reading her case study she is even more inspiring. Facebook & Jetblue gave me a solid example of the SWOT analysis methodology. It's one thing to read it & be tested on it. It's another to apply it. Those case studies really made this class for me.
I am not a fan of online classes but the interaction of a real live partner and the case studies really made this class come alive for me. Thank you professor for a great class. To everyone finishing in August - only 63 more days!! Hang in there.
Kimee
List of stuff I need to do - AKA Screwed
Yup. I am screwed. Last week I was on vacation & this week dental surgery really killed me. Although I did a lot on vacation it wasn't enough. This is what I got to do this weekend.
2 weeeks o discussion board (for 2 classes!)
Case Study
Retake Quiz #2
Presentation
Final
And that is just for school. Seriously.
Dental Surgery
So I didn't go to work Thursday or Friday. Pain medicine wiped me out. I still have WAY TOO MUCH homework to do. I am sooooo screwed.
Drugs
I got voicemail
On the homefront
Waiting
So he comes over & we drink & talk. Now I haven't drank in quite awhile. I was feeling it & I was hornier than hell. He is hot! Think smaller Kevin Smith without the glasses, or a little bit fatter Steve Perry without the long hair. Yea that is what I am talking about!!! So we are talking & it's going very good. I got to learn more about him & then he says he would like to see me again socially. He asked if that was ok. I said yes & he said ok great. A couple of minutes later he got up (he had a tent going *smile*) & said he didn't want our first time to be drunk. He wanted to take me out & spoil me like I deserve. Before he left, we kissed. Sigh, it was very very good.
I am very shy. VERY shy. I don't make the first move. I mean it's good that he didn't want to rush things, but the ironic part was that I did. I never do. This whole blog is me complaining about guys just wanting one thing. So here I meet him & he is gorgeous & wants to wait. Fucking irony. Seriously.
We left the next day before I had a chance to say goodbye. I left a message. He didn't call to see if I made it home safely. He didn't call to see when I was planning on coming back. He said he would check on me to see how I made out with the surgery. But the thing is, how likely is it that I will have the opportunity to see him again :( I am just thinking I will have open, healing holes in my head for a while. I can't go out to eat because I can't eat until November. I don't think I can kiss because of infection. So I am sad. I hope he calls on Wednesday.