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    Week 2: Joy Diet - Truth

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    posted Sunday, 27 September 2009

     
    I liked last week - doing nothing.  This week on the other hand, tell your self the truth.  I don't know if I can handle that!  Haven't they ever heard of Joyful Ignorance?  :) 

    The truths that came out almost immediately this weekend made me physically sick.  Perhaps it's detox, I don't know, but it wasn't pleasant & it certainly wasn't joyful.

    I don't think I understand the objective really.  The book says to Create and absorb at least one moment of truth each day, and ask these questions...
    What is the painful story I am telling?
    Can I be sure the story is true?  Is this story working?
    Can I think of a story that might work better?. 

    My truths were "I have diabetes" - something I have not allowed myself to think about.  I always said I have Insulin Resistance, which I did have, I just know that it has progressed to diabetes.  I have the lab slip in the car, I just don't want to know.  Well I couldn't know at the time, I had a mission.  Can I think of a story that might work better?  Yea I could lie to myself some more.  That question seems to be like finding a truth & then creating a lie.  I don't get it.  I know I can reverse this, I just need to loose some weight.  Which I can start to do.

    Another truth was "I'm a pack rat" - something that was not a hidden truth.  Oh yes, the story is definitely true!  Can I think of a story that might work better?  I'm not a pack rat & I know exactly where everything is?  So where is the truth in that?  See I don't think I am getting it.

    Another truth was "I'm fat & I'm afraid to even talk to anyone new" - The truth is I am fat.  I  hate the term BBW (Big Beautiful Woman).  Dating is tough when you are bigger.  Well now-a-days people hook up all the time but I think it is worse when you are bigger.  The few times I have gone out, I was asked up to their room a few minutes after saying hello.  Um NO!  Why don't you at least by me a drink first you jerk!  I am big but I am not desperate.  That pisses me off & puts me on guard.|

    So those were a few things that I was feeling this weekend.  The "doing nothing" got easier, perhaps because the truths made me sick & it was easy to just lie there.  Here's to a better week.


    comments (5)


    1. Karen left...
    Monday, 28 September 2009 9:02 am :: http://deldino.blogspot.com

    Thanks for sharing your week of nothing and the beginning of your week of truth. We should add a week on called "Ignorance is Bliss" we would all love that one!


    2. Sherry left...
    Monday, 28 September 2009 9:11 am :: http://everydaypossibilities.blogspot.co

    "Joyful Ignorance" -- oh I believe so much of us live or have lived (and some will continue to) in that state.

    I understand exactly what you are saying about truth making you physically ill...I felt somewhat the same way Kimee and I've gone through a lot of truth in my life. I thought I was going to sail through the truth chapter because I'd done all the work. Not so. Apparently there are still some issues for me around truth. I spent most of yesterday feeling sad, ill, out of sorts. Detox? I think you nailed it. This is about getting all the "bad" that we are holding in, out of our bodies and out of our minds so that we can be clear, healthy and ready to move forward.

    You are brave to speak your truths. It's much easier to cover them up or call them something else...as you had done with diabetes. I think being able to say it is being able to "own" it. Once you own it, you can do whatever you like with it. It doesn't have to own you.

    Wishing you strength and positive energy as you continue to move through truth this week.


    3. melita left...
    Monday, 28 September 2009 11:54 am :: http://gussyingupthetuttle.blogspot.com/

    ah nothing, so much joy can come from it. glad to be sharing in this journey for you. here's to the truth, whether we like it or not ;)


    4. Gretchen Wegner left...
    Monday, 28 September 2009 12:14 pm :: http://www.gretchenwegner.com

    Hi Kimee, I was thinking about your "I'm a packrat" truth, and how you felt confused about what the opposite of that truth is. It occurred to me that maybe your actual truth is "I don't get rid of stuff because..." Once you figure that out, it might be easier to turn it around.

    Thanks for all your honesty, though! Happy to be on this journey with you...


    5. kari left...
    Monday, 5 October 2009 11:51 pm :: http://carlson.typepad.com

    "i am big, but i am not desperate." i LOVE that line... what total self-respect! nice.